My Heart is in his Hands

Late Friday night my niece had cried to me that she couldn't fall asleep. My niece was nervous that if she didn't fall asleep then she would not focus on her studies Saturday morning at her tutoring center. I asked my niece if she wanted milk or water which she had shaken her head "no". The only solution which I could help my 9 year old niece is to pray for her. I had put my hands on her head and asked The Lord to give her peace while she slept. 2 minutes later my niece was sound asleep. I had thanked The Lord for this little miracle for my niece. Being a part time parent to my niece is important to me. It is important to teach her having a relationship with The Lord. Reading his word or sing a worship song on Pandora. Or getting a reminder on her iPhone to read her Bible in her quiet time. Or running to church when I can to hear the word from the preacher.

All my life my dad taught me to find The Lord. Having a relationship with The Lord didn't come official until I was 16 years old which was 17 years ago today. I remembered one spring morning at the church retreat The Lord had spoken into my heart ask him into my life. Life wasn't the same for me after that day.

Life has ups & downs. The Lord has been my only hope in my life. When I was hurting which I would call my earthly dad to pray for me like my niece. I don't have my earthly dad to pray for me in my life now. My earthly dad is in heaven. Now, I have The Lord to guide my steps especially if I'm part time parent to my niece.


"Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. "(Proverbs 3:5 KJV)

A love for a Father in 2007

This morning, I was talking to my dad and at the end of our conversation he responded to me that he loved me. Not many fathers tell their own daughters that they love them. Many of you guys on myspace may not know what my father is all about but with one word I can describe who he is. He is one to have compassion for others. My father would go out of his way just to help my family, friends and myself with anything. I mean anything. There been many times I would be stuck in a situation and needed help. He would always be there to help me. He would always encourage me to finish on getting my degree when I had tough times at school. I am soon to finish at the end of this year. He would be my Friday night date to the movies when I was feeling lonely. Now, I'm in a great relationship with another man in my life that I am dating. My dad is my hero in my life. Sometimes the hero has to fall to the ground. I look at my dad dealing with colon cancer and fighting for his life with this darn disease. I feel helpless for him and I want to fix this problem but I can't. The only way I can be strong is to have faith in the Lord. I have to believe the Lord will heal him from this cancer. One day, I will see his healing come to pass in his body. For now I wait and pray.

I wrote this piece in 4.12.07**** on MySpace

March is Colon Cancer Awareness month.

My dad was a survivor for 1st time with colon cancer.

http://www.butt-check.org/survivor-stories/dan-rodriguez.php

2nd time my dad was diagnosed with colon cancer. My dad passed away from colon cancer on 09.14.11

I promised myself that I would continue the rest of my life to get the word out of colon cancer to others.

Iamisleen

Isaiah 53
4 Surely he took up our infirmities
and carried our sorrows,
yet we considered him stricken by God,
smitten by him, and afflicted.
5 But he was pierced for our transgressions,
he was crushed for our iniquities;
the punishment that brought us peace was upon him,
and by his wounds we are healed.
6 We all, like sheep, have gone astray,
each of us has turned to his own way;
and the LORD has laid on him
the iniquity of us all.
7 He was oppressed and afflicted,
yet he did not open his mouth;
he was led like a lamb to the slaughter,
and as a sheep before her shearers is silent,

so he did not open his mouth.

What is True Beauty?

I wrote this article on May 4, 2006***

I was once in this Philosophy class and one of the questioned was being asked to the class on how to define the meaning of beauty? One man said that beauty can be defined on what the appearance is on the outside. It was the wrong answer as the teacher told him. One of the great philosopher Plato argued that the form of beauty is characterized sometimes by the kind of image.

In a sense in a society, we tend to look at beauty on what appearance on the outside. As a woman in today society, I had come to the conclusion that beauty is not everything. Singer Shakira said recently to Teen People, "Beauty is subject to its magical touch-ups. What we see on magazine covers as the model of beauty isn't real. I think that's very damaging. Some of the celebrities which they feel this pressure too."

I agree with Shakira on what she had said because all of us are real people and live in a real world with a certain perceptions of being beautiful which is so unrealistic.

We as a society need to look within a person and not judge only by beautiful appearances but by the heart. As a twenty-something woman also I have learned it not the self-image but the Lord can show us the true beauty within ourselves if we allow him inside of our hearts.

1 Peter 3:4:
4Instead, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God's sight.

Shakira: "It's Not My Hobby to Show My Belly"

By Zena Burns

http://www.shakiramedia.com/articles/detail/1113

2013 will be Lucky year!!!!

2013 will be a good year! 13 is known to be a unlucky number but in my eyes it will be a good year! Last year was a good year for me but a few things which I need to change for the best. Everyone is trying to lose weight but I am changing  a few things in my life this new year. These are 10 things that I am changing!

One, social media. I noticed that I haven't been reading any books this last year. Yes, I am cutting out checking my Facebook every hour. I went old school to check my message on my computer instead of checking my messages on my Facebook App on my phone.

Two, working out! I need to have 1 hour at least working out and not having excuses for not working out.

Three, cut the credit cards. Since congress is changing the rules on our taxes. It is time save every penny in my pocket. No more credit cards!

Four, make more time time to socialize with friends. Time is short and so is the year!

Five, volunteer in my community. Make more time to give to others with my time instead of myself.

Six, take more photos and being creativity with my skills. Be useful in my free time!

Seven, watch what I eat! No sodas, or sugar snacks. Stay away from Junk food! Drink lots of water! 

Eight, try to spend more time to take a vacation. I had no vacation last year. This year, I will make a point to find some time to have a break.

Nine, Give G-d more time! At times I lack reading his word or hear the word. 

Ten, make more time to blog! Yes, I lack writing on the web. I promise to bring more interesting topics online. I am writer and this is what I am called to do.  

America, America….. As we cry out for you

Today is voting in America. I am not going to talk politics in this entry. I have spoken about politics before but this time which I am keeping my mouth shut. It has been a stressful four years for all of us with many issues. Everyone has their reasons on who they are voting for this election in 2012. Prayer will be the most important fight for our nation tonight. Prayer will be in need for all the hurricane victims across the East coast especially in New Jersey & New York.

New Jersey is like a 2nd home to me. Every two years, I spend my holidays in New Jersey or in New York. My friends live in New Jersey & New York. It is heartbreak to see many of the cities in non- exist. Families are in tears of the lost of their homes and their neighborhoods. Most these folks did not know what was tomorrow going to bring when the hurricane hit their cities on October 29, 2012. Their lives may be broken now but tomorrow brings a new beginning for New York and New Jersey. My heart goes to all the families in New Jersey. We will stand behind you New York and New Jersey and also in prayer. We will give, give as much as we can. We love you, New York and New Jersey. People of New York and New Jersey...you are in the hands of the Lord.

Pink & Blue Ribbon

Pink Ribbon is sign of a fight from all woman fighters who have breast cancer or who had fought breast cancer. This October, I have noticed more pink ribbons are worn for breast cancer all month long. Each woman who is reading this blog please keep fighting for your healing in Jesus Name.

Blue Ribbon is worn who is fighting colon cancer or who have fought cancer. March is the month to wear the blue ribbon but I have decided to combine blue and pink together. Why? Cancer awareness is the real issue. We must find a cure for this ugly disease.

Recently, a friend of my dad’s who had passed away from colon cancer. I was saddened with the news but I know he is in heaven golfing with my dad on the heaven green fields.

See below of my pink and blue ribbon cancer awarness at Susan G. Komen Race at North Park Mall on 10.20.12. 

" Why I Serve the Lord" By: Dan Rodriguez

This past weekend two families are mourning for their love ones who had passed away. My heart is with sadness of the love ones who had passed away. I did not know these two individuals very well but my heart breaks for all family members.

I am mourning the loss of my dad who passed away a year ago on September 14,2011. I have struggled all year missing my dad. Some of you guys miss my dad too. My dad encouraged you during difficult times in your past. Today, as I was going through my dad's written notes. I found this interesting note that will make you cry.

"Why I Serve the Lord” By: Dan Rodriguez 1999

I want God's word to continue to flow through me like a river of living water where there is no beginning and no end providing pure clean blessings from his word to all areas to all places to all people within reach.

I want my kids and all my family to do the same. I can not expect them to serve God if I'm not willing. Surely only good can come when we serve the living God who gives us all authority and power through Jesus Christ. To overcome the adversities of this world because of the Blood of the perfect lamb who died on that cross on Cavalry. Thank you Jesus for that amazing task that none of us could do.

I want to meet the people that we read everyday like Moses, Paul, Elijah, Daniel, David, and Joseph whom God used greatly in the assigned tasks in their life while they lived like you and I waiting for their savior to appear in the clouds with a loud trumpet. ( My dad said this quote to me few times.)

I want to make a difference even if it seems so small. I know that my redeemer lives within my heart and anything I do will be in the same body of Christ of whom we will not know until we all gather together with the Lord. We will find out all the pieces really did come together without loose ends.

I want to see Jesus and the Father whom we know is love, joy and everlasting. I want to tell the Lord that I love him and wish I could do so much more for him and his gospel.

I want to see my parents who I know made it with the Lord because they accepted Jesus in their lives before graduating home. I want to have so much more of him everyday. I know I can always use more of Jesus and less of me.

I want the Lord's word to spring out of me refreshing and enlightening those individuals who I know need a fresh shower of his word so life can begin to flow forth where there has only been emptiness and loneliness so shouts of JOY can come from these folks touched by his mercy and truth!

I want to take every individuals around me with me to God's home because I know many are lost, hurting, without hope. I want them to see the Lord while yet there is time, energy, and life left.

I want to walk on the streets of Gold. I've only seen very small amount of gold only on rings and chains and gold bars in pictures.

I want to see the chariot of fire Elijah rode in to Heaven. I want to talk to the man who moved God so much to do the mighty miracles while he lived on the earth.

I want to see all the Angels of the Lord for I know they are numerous as the Sea and more variety compared to the people on Earth. Having been made by our heavenly father.

I want to rest in the Lord knowing he has got me covered without having to look around for the opposition on every corner every crack everyday everywhere.

I want to spread this peace within my heart to others in turmoil and constant pain to release the much hurting the much afflicted from their bondage through our Lord and Savior Jesus.

If I don't do anything else, I want to be at least light to others to see that serving isn't about things, places, time, but a real significants relationships with the one and only Lord of who's name every tongue will confess and every knee will bow. A name above names that has earned our most deepest honor and gratitude that name would be Jesus Christ of Nazareth from Galilee who still today is saying to all man kind as he did to two brothers Simon and Peter while were fishing besides the sea of Galilee Follow me.

Be Ready