She didn't give up in life

As children we talk about our parents to others. When I talk to people about my mom which I tell them she works for huge auto industry company at the age of 57. She is a single lady. She likes to shop like me and do her hair. Then, I show my colleagues or my friends my mom's picture & me. One colleague looked at me with confusion. She didn't want to pick out the wrong lady in the picture. I told her it was the lady on the far right. She said to me, “ Is that your mom?” I told her yes! My mom is not a old lady with gray hair sitting around with her rocking chair. My mom is a mover and shaker. My mom did not give up in life when the storms came through. My mom went through a lot of hell when she lost her husband. My dad was her soulmate. When I see my mom alone. I just want to hug her or go watch a movie with her. I hate to see my mom alone. My mom met my dad when she was 16 years old. My parents had issues in their marriage but they continued their love story like the Simpsons. My mom was like Marge Simpson and dad was like Homer Simpson. My dad liked the sweet foods. Dad made crazy mistakes. Mom was like Marge trying to save the family from the silly mistakes Homer made.

Then, Homer Simpson which was my dad passed away. Can you imagine what the show would be like without Homer Simpson? The show would be cancelled. The show was not cancelled in our real life.

Well, the blue hair lady continued her life with her children. I'm Lisa Simpson the oldest. My brother Mark is Bart Simpson. Sarah is Maggie, the baby. The blue hair lady is not crying her eyes out or depressed at home without Homer Simpson. She is strong and living the life. The blue hair lady just went to Florida with Selma ( her best sister in law- Mona). Selma is a pretty woman in real life.

So this blue hair lady continues to help her coworkers at work. She puts parties together during lunch times. The blue hair lady talks to her 91 year old father, Grandpa Abraham ( Papa). The blue hair lady babysitting her grand children. The blue hair lady dresses in her best and goes to church. The blue hair lady sometimes she misses being next to her Homer Simpson in church. The blue hair lady says she is trusting in the Lord. The blue hair lady is making major decisions in the next few years of her life.The Blue hair lady didn't give up with her dreams. The blue hair lady is still moving and loving her family each day. This blue hair lady is one amazing mama to me and my family. We love this blue hair lady waited a minute she has brown hair. My mom is not Marge Simpson. Her name is Emily. She loves red roses. This brown hair lady is my mom. Happy Mother's Day!

Iamisleen

My Heart is in his Hands

Late Friday night my niece had cried to me that she couldn't fall asleep. My niece was nervous that if she didn't fall asleep then she would not focus on her studies Saturday morning at her tutoring center. I asked my niece if she wanted milk or water which she had shaken her head "no". The only solution which I could help my 9 year old niece is to pray for her. I had put my hands on her head and asked The Lord to give her peace while she slept. 2 minutes later my niece was sound asleep. I had thanked The Lord for this little miracle for my niece. Being a part time parent to my niece is important to me. It is important to teach her having a relationship with The Lord. Reading his word or sing a worship song on Pandora. Or getting a reminder on her iPhone to read her Bible in her quiet time. Or running to church when I can to hear the word from the preacher.

All my life my dad taught me to find The Lord. Having a relationship with The Lord didn't come official until I was 16 years old which was 17 years ago today. I remembered one spring morning at the church retreat The Lord had spoken into my heart ask him into my life. Life wasn't the same for me after that day.

Life has ups & downs. The Lord has been my only hope in my life. When I was hurting which I would call my earthly dad to pray for me like my niece. I don't have my earthly dad to pray for me in my life now. My earthly dad is in heaven. Now, I have The Lord to guide my steps especially if I'm part time parent to my niece.


"Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. "(Proverbs 3:5 KJV)

A love for a Father in 2007

This morning, I was talking to my dad and at the end of our conversation he responded to me that he loved me. Not many fathers tell their own daughters that they love them. Many of you guys on myspace may not know what my father is all about but with one word I can describe who he is. He is one to have compassion for others. My father would go out of his way just to help my family, friends and myself with anything. I mean anything. There been many times I would be stuck in a situation and needed help. He would always be there to help me. He would always encourage me to finish on getting my degree when I had tough times at school. I am soon to finish at the end of this year. He would be my Friday night date to the movies when I was feeling lonely. Now, I'm in a great relationship with another man in my life that I am dating. My dad is my hero in my life. Sometimes the hero has to fall to the ground. I look at my dad dealing with colon cancer and fighting for his life with this darn disease. I feel helpless for him and I want to fix this problem but I can't. The only way I can be strong is to have faith in the Lord. I have to believe the Lord will heal him from this cancer. One day, I will see his healing come to pass in his body. For now I wait and pray.

I wrote this piece in 4.12.07**** on MySpace

March is Colon Cancer Awareness month.

My dad was a survivor for 1st time with colon cancer.

http://www.butt-check.org/survivor-stories/dan-rodriguez.php

2nd time my dad was diagnosed with colon cancer. My dad passed away from colon cancer on 09.14.11

I promised myself that I would continue the rest of my life to get the word out of colon cancer to others.

Iamisleen

Isaiah 53
4 Surely he took up our infirmities
and carried our sorrows,
yet we considered him stricken by God,
smitten by him, and afflicted.
5 But he was pierced for our transgressions,
he was crushed for our iniquities;
the punishment that brought us peace was upon him,
and by his wounds we are healed.
6 We all, like sheep, have gone astray,
each of us has turned to his own way;
and the LORD has laid on him
the iniquity of us all.
7 He was oppressed and afflicted,
yet he did not open his mouth;
he was led like a lamb to the slaughter,
and as a sheep before her shearers is silent,

so he did not open his mouth.

What is True Beauty?

I wrote this article on May 4, 2006***

I was once in this Philosophy class and one of the questioned was being asked to the class on how to define the meaning of beauty? One man said that beauty can be defined on what the appearance is on the outside. It was the wrong answer as the teacher told him. One of the great philosopher Plato argued that the form of beauty is characterized sometimes by the kind of image.

In a sense in a society, we tend to look at beauty on what appearance on the outside. As a woman in today society, I had come to the conclusion that beauty is not everything. Singer Shakira said recently to Teen People, "Beauty is subject to its magical touch-ups. What we see on magazine covers as the model of beauty isn't real. I think that's very damaging. Some of the celebrities which they feel this pressure too."

I agree with Shakira on what she had said because all of us are real people and live in a real world with a certain perceptions of being beautiful which is so unrealistic.

We as a society need to look within a person and not judge only by beautiful appearances but by the heart. As a twenty-something woman also I have learned it not the self-image but the Lord can show us the true beauty within ourselves if we allow him inside of our hearts.

1 Peter 3:4:
4Instead, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God's sight.

Shakira: "It's Not My Hobby to Show My Belly"

By Zena Burns

http://www.shakiramedia.com/articles/detail/1113

2013 will be Lucky year!!!!

2013 will be a good year! 13 is known to be a unlucky number but in my eyes it will be a good year! Last year was a good year for me but a few things which I need to change for the best. Everyone is trying to lose weight but I am changing  a few things in my life this new year. These are 10 things that I am changing!

One, social media. I noticed that I haven't been reading any books this last year. Yes, I am cutting out checking my Facebook every hour. I went old school to check my message on my computer instead of checking my messages on my Facebook App on my phone.

Two, working out! I need to have 1 hour at least working out and not having excuses for not working out.

Three, cut the credit cards. Since congress is changing the rules on our taxes. It is time save every penny in my pocket. No more credit cards!

Four, make more time time to socialize with friends. Time is short and so is the year!

Five, volunteer in my community. Make more time to give to others with my time instead of myself.

Six, take more photos and being creativity with my skills. Be useful in my free time!

Seven, watch what I eat! No sodas, or sugar snacks. Stay away from Junk food! Drink lots of water! 

Eight, try to spend more time to take a vacation. I had no vacation last year. This year, I will make a point to find some time to have a break.

Nine, Give G-d more time! At times I lack reading his word or hear the word. 

Ten, make more time to blog! Yes, I lack writing on the web. I promise to bring more interesting topics online. I am writer and this is what I am called to do.  

America, America….. As we cry out for you

Today is voting in America. I am not going to talk politics in this entry. I have spoken about politics before but this time which I am keeping my mouth shut. It has been a stressful four years for all of us with many issues. Everyone has their reasons on who they are voting for this election in 2012. Prayer will be the most important fight for our nation tonight. Prayer will be in need for all the hurricane victims across the East coast especially in New Jersey & New York.

New Jersey is like a 2nd home to me. Every two years, I spend my holidays in New Jersey or in New York. My friends live in New Jersey & New York. It is heartbreak to see many of the cities in non- exist. Families are in tears of the lost of their homes and their neighborhoods. Most these folks did not know what was tomorrow going to bring when the hurricane hit their cities on October 29, 2012. Their lives may be broken now but tomorrow brings a new beginning for New York and New Jersey. My heart goes to all the families in New Jersey. We will stand behind you New York and New Jersey and also in prayer. We will give, give as much as we can. We love you, New York and New Jersey. People of New York and New Jersey...you are in the hands of the Lord.

Pink & Blue Ribbon

Pink Ribbon is sign of a fight from all woman fighters who have breast cancer or who had fought breast cancer. This October, I have noticed more pink ribbons are worn for breast cancer all month long. Each woman who is reading this blog please keep fighting for your healing in Jesus Name.

Blue Ribbon is worn who is fighting colon cancer or who have fought cancer. March is the month to wear the blue ribbon but I have decided to combine blue and pink together. Why? Cancer awareness is the real issue. We must find a cure for this ugly disease.

Recently, a friend of my dad’s who had passed away from colon cancer. I was saddened with the news but I know he is in heaven golfing with my dad on the heaven green fields.

See below of my pink and blue ribbon cancer awarness at Susan G. Komen Race at North Park Mall on 10.20.12.