The Impossible could be the Possible

I hear this little voice saying to me, “I am not worthless, not pretty, and not smart; my career is not at the height of where it should be.” Many of you know as well which I hold down 3 jobs and go to school. One job is full time job which I work 8:30-5pm, part time I work at the Hilton on the weekends and other small part time job is selling Avon products. I attend classes as a grad student during the week after my 8-5 job or online. This little voice has probably spoken to you already saying the same things to you but I tell you it is a lie. You are worthy and beautiful in the Lord’s eyes. Don’t think a guy can give all the needs that you need as a woman. There are some things a guy can’t give you or any other man can give you but only the Lord. If there is someone who is feeling not loved remember there is someone who loves you so much that he died for you. If you are reading my words please know that I wrote this for you. Hug over the this blog.


The impossible could be the possible..............
As watching Karate Kid with Jaden Smith about this story child who moves from America and into a new land of China. This child meets a new friend who teaches him Kung Fu in defending himself from the school bullies. Only to watched the beginning of the movie but there was something about this movie that was special to me which was the people of China and this amazing culture. Was I about to journey into this land of the republic of China? It had been 10 years ago; I journey into Middle East learning a new culture when I was 20 years old but was this going to happen again at the age of 30 years old? Time will tell but it will only happen if it is the Lord’s will. Right now, I pray for change in my life to reach out to a new land and ministry to those who are in need in my crazy schedule. I am asking many who are prayer warriors to help me keep me in prayer to make the correct decision if this opportunity comes into my path this year. I will let you know when things occur soon.

Be Blessed.
Isleen

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30 Things to do for 30 days before turing 30!

This week, I was thinking of making a bucket list but I thought to myself I am not going to die soon but I thought this might be interesting to find things I haven’t done in my almost 30 years of my life ( I am turning 30 on Sept. 28th). In my 29 years of my life, I have done the following things: I have jumped out of plane, rode on a back of a motorcycle, rode a horse like a jockey, ski on water & tried to wake-boarding ( I haven’t ski on snow), play guitar & violin, sang in public & spoke in public, worked on actually car, went to D.C. , CA., New York & N.J. ( Seen all the sites), met some famous people, Brett Michaels, Nolan Ryan, and Chris Botti (Wink at me) but I can’t remember all of them…. Napa Valley , I went on a mission trip several times in Mexico. Visit Israel ( Seen all the famous sites in Israel), there is more on my list but I cannot think all of them at this time.

1. Go to Las Vegas and met Elvis (Pretend Elvis) (I’m a fan of Elvis) to take picture. (Going to Vegas on Sept.1) Did already!!

2. Go to Eifel Tower (In Las Vegas) I have not been to the Eifel Tower in Paris (I almost went to the Eifel Tower when I was 21 Years old). Did already!!!

3. Buy Ice Cream cone for stranger @ Mc D’s

4 .Volunteer to help some kiddos ( I accomplished this on 08.14.10)

5. Buy grocery for a family in need (I did bought a few items to my sis family to eat dinner every Monday.) I love my family!

6. Take a picture with bunch of balloons in my hands (I’m artist, I can’t help it)

7. Drive a motorcycle (I managed to drive motorcycle just a tiny bit but it did not count)

8. Take pictures of me driving classic cars or look like I driven classic cars

9. Have make up done like a super model off the run ways of New York
(I can arrange this) Not yet, Maybe, One day! My cousin did a make over April 2011

10. Grow a garden (It is in the works, I am growing plants on my deck) Did already!

11. Take pictures with a mascot or hang with a mascot of some school. I have taken a pic with mascot from UNT on 04.30.11

12. Help an old person walk across the street (I helped Clifford's mom with car battery across the parking lot to get inside store on 08.14.10

13. Run for a whole mile before I turn 30 (I ran more than mile but I have not done it recently)

14. Dress like a cowgirl (As a Texan, it is mandatory for a gal to dress up like a real cowgirl once in her life time if you live in Texas) Maybe go to store and try on some outfits

15. Buy a cup of coffee for stranger (Starbucks) (I bought a 12 cups of coffee for co-worker for the rest of the year.)

17. Stomping the grapes like the episode in I love Lucy show, I did this @ Grapefest!

18. Play laser tag or paint ball

19. Played glow in dark golf

20. Go to Egypt (go to museum, rent DVDs of the history of Egypt) I met a guy from Egypt on 08.14.10

21. Played golf on a real golf course like Tiger Woods. ( No, Putt Golf for me)

22. Go to China (Since, I can’t go to China but eat at nice restaurant ) I must dress like a gal from China. I am going to China for Month July, 2011

23. Make chocolate candies for my friends or family (I like candy but I would like to see how the candies are made)

24. Shoot a gun (I don’t like guns but I can try to shoot a gun at shooting range)

25. Go to Europe (Since, I can’t go to Europe I can eat at French restaurant, Italian, German restaurant) Did already during my vacation!

26. Go to Australia (I cannot go to Australia but I would like to Skype my Australia friend, Zelda) I have not seen her in years or talked to her in person in years.

27. Go to Africa (Eat actually food good from Africa) Dress like from Africa, I had connected with a lady who shared her dream as child that had came into reality as adult. Amazing Lady!

28. Learn karate (Like the karate kid) Learned karate from a teacher on 08.12.10

29. Take scuba dive lesson

30. Get married or get in engaged! Did Not get engaged but the Good Lord is amazing and I don't need a ring to say someone loves me.

My sis bought me this really cool ring for my 30th B-day! It topped my day!










Shem Yisrael (or Sh’m Yisroel or just Shema) ( Hear, (O) Irael”) are the first two words of the a section of the Torah ( Hebrew Bible) that is used as centerpiece of all morning and evening Jewish Prayer services are closely echoes the monotheistic message of Judaism. It is considered the most important prayer in Judaism and it twice-day recitation is a mitzvah ( Religious Commandment).

Maria

Maria was a women who was born to a mother who was Mexican Indian. Her mother labored in a home as maid in the deep part of Mexico. Maria's father was the man that her mother worked in the home. Maria married at a young age at 14 years old to my grandfather and they started life together. Maria and my grandfather had 5 children and decided to come to the states for a better life for their future family.

Maria was an intelligent woman who had raised 14 children and in the states. Maria worked and raised a family all her life. In the 70's, Maria's children were growing up and getting married one by one. My mom, Emily was her daughter. Maria came to the Christian faith during the Jesus movement during the 70's. Maria did not read or write. Maria could barely write her own name. My grandfather would read the Bible in Spanish to her. I remembered as a child, Maria would point at verse and my grandfather would read to her in Psalms or any other portion from the Bible. Maria was a prayer warrior for her family. On September 26th 1980, my mother was in the hospital with a baby in her womb and had severe complications. My mom had me in her womb for 2 days. Maria took a stand to pray for my mom & I. Maria called everyone she knew from the pastor, church members, her family to pray for the birth of me & the life of my mom. On September 28th, 1980 on Sunday night around 7pm. I was born. I will always thank my grandmother, Maria for praying for my mother and me.

Maria would sacrifice to wake up 5 or 6 o clock in the morning to cook for her family. Maria was a chef in the kitchen. She would cook a grand meal for her family less than 30 minutes. Maria was artist. Maria would craft and make many things in her older age. She kept herself busy by making dresses, milk carton bunny rabbits, blankets, dolls, clothes, and table clothes. Interesting part, Maria did not read or write. I don't know how she managed to make all these things without reading or writing. Maria was a traveler. Maria's children lived all over the country from Washington, California, Texas, and Virginia. Maria would get on the plane and not have fear to fly in the air. Remember Maria did read or write or even speak English. Maria manage and was successful to visit each of her family member. Maria was a servant. When Maria came to your house she would cook and clean without asking you. My dad told me once that she iron every work shirt in his closet. My dad was thankful for Maria to Iron his shirt without asking. Maria had a big heart for those who she loved. Maria became a American citizen in her later years of her life. Maria did not know English very well but she knew one sentence that she would say when she went to the stores, “ Jesus loves you.” Store clerks would shed a tear when she said those words to them. I remembered one summer sitting down with Maria and reading a 1st grade book with her. I remembered hearing the words, “ See cat run.” It was a moment that I will never forget of my grandmother reading in English. Maria wanted to learn how to read. Mom told me that my grandmother had dyslexia but still wanted to read. Maria was a listener and counselor. If you had a problem you would talk to Maria about anything in your life. Maria was so much more but than just a grandmother but a woman that did not have the education or even read or write but had a dream. Maria's words last words to me before she passed away was to finish college before I married. My inspiration was my grandmother Maria who is still in my heart even today. Maria is story like other women in our society who cannot read or wrote but willing to raise their children. I want to mentor, encourage and teach other women not to be what society wants them to be like or what they can accomplish in their lives. Education is not about money or the high paying job but it is to be challenge in our lives and to teach others.

Isleen Rodriguez

Father, Father, I love you

Father, Father,…. you are strong, you wise, you are love to others, you can teach us about life As I say these words to my biological dad on Father’s Day. Looking into the eyes of my father who has brown eyes and underneath is his wrinkles from staying up late when I was sick or my two siblings who were sick when we were younger. My father’s gray hairs stick out of his hair because of all the stress that he has gone through in the last 10 years of his life with job losses, cancer, separation, and family issues. My dad still has his youth and you would not think that he is 55 years old but looks as if he was still in his early 30’s. Sometimes he shows me his muscles to tell me how are his muscles look which I always tell my dad it looks good. My dad has a sense of humor never dies away but it always alive when I am feeling down. My dad is also a father to many others children who are not his own. My nieces always call my dad, “Dad”. I love it when I hear my nieces call my father, “dad”. Many others have looked to my dad as their own heart father and it touches my heart that my dad can be there for other individuals.

My father had his father passed away when I was 6 years old but misses his biological father each day as he tells me. My dad has adopted my mom’s father, as he own dad. My dad also has the father in heaven as his own. My dad could not survive without his father in heaven after having colon cancer and thanks Lord for his life each day.

If you do not have a father to celebrate this Father’s Day please look to the Lord as your own. The Father in heaven will not leave you or forsake you and be by your side when you feel alone. Father, Father will always love you.

Isleen

Facing Technology


I am at the age of 29 years old and seen technology move into new directions in the last 15 years of my life. For me, getting on the Internet was the new thing when I was 16 years old and using the cell phone back in 1996. This was a new device to explore if you were buying car or looked up for important information. It took forever to get information to download from the Internet. I remembered that I had waited 5 mins. for each page to download because the modem was so slow. Times have changed since then and today we have the Internet in the palm of our hands. For me social sites were ideal while I was in school to keep up with everyone’s life. I started to use Myspace back in 2004. I could put my pictures, write blogs, make comments to each of my friends and it was fun. Then, Facebook came out in 2004 for college students. Only college students could log on to the website to keep up with each other's lives. Facebook was a different world back in 2004 compared 2010. Many of us, college students kept up because of our classes but not socially purpose like today. Other social networks like Twitter came out in 2008. Not many people knew about Twitter until media started expressed how useful it was. The social media became the new thing in 2008 or 2009.

Having a smart phone was the new thing to carry around so you can log on to your Facebook or Twitter. Having these social media was convenient to be to keep up with your friends. The convenient was taking over my everyday life by having Facebook in the palm of my hands or chilling at home. June 1st, I am leaving Facebook, Twitter and Myspace but I will be back in August. I need a season of my life to focus more than social media. Why you ask? One reason is that I need to focus on my life on my studies for my Master degree. It is hard enough to keep up with the smallest tasks at home or with my family. A distraction when it comes to being at church. Yes, at church. You are sitting in the pew when the pastor is giving the Sunday’s message and you take a moment to glance at your Facebook status. Yes. This has happened to me many times and it has become a distraction to me. There are other personnel reasons but you will have to call me or email me.


I love to see what had happens with my friends or I update the good news. This summer, I am going old school without Facebook, Myspace or Twitter. Will there be a difference in my life? You will have to wait and see after August. Having a life without Facebook will be a question in which you had to see in my future blog.

The Baby boomers generation are surviving without Facebook but can Generation X or Y surviving without Facebook? My dad tells me why is Facebook is so popular and what is so big about it. He has a Facebook but rarely checks on it. Why are the Baby boomers are not in love without Facebook but our generation in love with Facebook? Many of the baby boomers keep up with their emails and phone calls with their family or friends. Have our generation lost of being personnel with others? Have we lost the personnel touch when it comes to party invitations or old sending pictures in the mail? I would have to agree with my statement. Post office is in trouble because many our generation is sending invitation on Evite or Facebook it. Many jobs are lost because of technology. Next time you send invitation in the mail for a party think about how many jobs are lost because of technology. I know it is convenient for us but think about the $.44 can save a family’s bread and butter or even a job.

What will happen if our technology collapse? How will we communicate?
I was reading article this week about Facebook having privacy issues on the settings and that were a numerous people quitting Facebook. Check out this article at this link: http://www.hometownannapolis.com/news/bus/2010/05/25-47/Facebook-CEO-admits-mistakes-vows-simpler-privacy-controls.html . After reading this article, I questioned myself about privacy settings. Are we putting social sites first in our lives? Think about this question? When we are stressed, alone, rejected, happy, sad, moody, etc. we have to put it in Facebook status to allow the world to read it. Are you really giving your life away to technology? What will become after Facebook or Twitter? Where will our communication be in the next few years? Will it be in the eyeglasses or a small device smaller than a blue tooth? Will be smaller that IPOD? Think about it? Here I go old school? Will my life change to reach out to real people? Will I reach others people around me than reach for my Facebook or Twitter? I will let you know this little test. I will journal many of my entries of this little test to tell you will happen. See you in August.

Old School Gal,
Isleen

I have a Dream

I have a Dream

Martin Luther King, Jr. is inspiring person of the century and amazing speaker. As I read, I have a Dream speech I could comment from the beginning of his speech until the end of his speech. My favorite part of the “I have a Dream Speech”, is where Martin Luther King ,Jr. says, “I have a dream that one day every valley shall be exalted, and every hill and mountain shall be made low, the rough places will be made plain, and the crooked places will be made straight; "and the glory of the Lord shall be revealed and all flesh shall see it together."

Martin Luther King, Jr. made his speech of his dream but do you have a dream? I want to challenge on your dream? Are you still pursuing your dream or is your dream dead? I recently was counseling a few people and I had encouraged them not give up your dream even when things were at a rough point in their lives. I really feel there are reasons on why we were given dreams in our lives.

I had a hard time trying to manage my crazy schedule with my two jobs and three classes. I had sat down in one of my co-workers office and I told her how stressed out I have been feeling about my current schedule. My co-worker asked me on why I went back to school and do I have vision that I was pursuing? I told her yes. I had to go back to a few of my journals to read of what were some of my dreams in the past. I found a journal that I had written five years ago. I was surprised to see I have not given up on my dream to finishing school while I was going through some personnel struggles. Today, I am still in the place where I was 5 years ago but on a different level in my school. I had my dream to finish college but I never thought in a million years that I would be in the place of where I am today. I know the Lord has guided me in the path of where I am. I am not going to throw in the towel. My dream is for my future family. I am not married and I do not have children but when I look at my niece's faces and I think to myself will I support them in the future? Will I survive this recession with my future family? These are my fears for my future family but I am willing to fight to have a better life. Another dream of mine when I was child is to teach. I have always wanted to be a teacher since I was 12 years old. I used to teach my brother and sister in the summer months when there was nothing to do and they would be bored of my lesson plans. Now , I as I look back I do not want to give up on my childhood dream to teach others. My dream is to teach the learning disabilities students in the college. I was one of those learning disability student was told that I could never graduate from the university but only a 2 year college, but I did. I managed a full time job while going to school until I graduated with my undergraduate degree. I still have my dream and I am not going to give up. Here is one of verses that inspires my life in 1 Corinthians 9:24-27 “ ²⁴Do you not know that in a race all the runners run, but only one gets the prize? Run in such a way as to get the prize. ²⁵Everyone who competes in the games goes into strict training. They do it to get a crown that will not last; but we do it to get a crown that will last forever. ²⁶Therefore I do not run like a man running aimlessly; I do not fight like a man beating the air. ²⁷No, I beat my body and make it my slave so that after I have preached to others, I myself will not be disqualified for the prize.” Keep your dream alive. Finish the race to you dream.

Isleen

Pride

During the summer around the time Fourth of July, I like to get Old Navy t-shirt or tank that has the American flag. I started this tradition since I was in high school because I love celebrate American’s independence. As American,I am proud of our country and where I live which there is nothing wrong about it. Then there is the word pride. The word pride is defined is having something such as an achievement or possession that somebody feels especially pleased and satisfied. Recently in my life, I have dealt with pride in my life. If I do not know something, I can usually google on cell phone to find the answer but I came into a situation where I did not know the answer accept to look at the Lord. The Lord has shown me in class or through my textbooks that Lord is in control and I am not.

I rode my bike for the first time without the training wheels when I was six years old with my dad. I had a red Huffy bike that had training wheels on it. My dad decided that afternoon that I was going to ride my bike without the training wheels. I was frightened to ride my bike without the training wheels but my dad knew it had to be done or else I will never ride a bike. He told me that he will hold on to my bike but he will let go after 1 min., which he did. I was riding my bike and it was the proudest moment for my dad but then I fell off the bike. I tried repeatedly to ride my bike without the training wheels and eventually rode my bike without my dad. I never gave up on my bike or showed my dad that I can do it, which I did. In life, you can never give up on the Lord. The Lord will be with you every step of the way. You just have to let go and allow the Lord to take control of your life. We do not have the answers of why negative things happen to us but we need to press through the Lord by having trust in him.

Isleen Rodriguez