Wednesday, August 15, 2012

I'm Wide Awake- Isleen





Hello, World!

It has been awhile since I have written anything on this blog. I have reflected many things in my life this past summer. I have my dark days and my sunny days in my life. Sometimes the dark days are longer than it should be in my life. It will be a year from now since I lost my best friend, my dad to colon cancer. Yes, I have tried to move on this year but it has not been easy to be healed from the pain this year. I have tried to put aside the pain and keep busy but the pain follows me. I cried my tears away in depression sometimes. Yes, I am mess, people. I am human. I am Christian who has this huge pain in my life. A death has occurred with your love one. The death can also have effect inside of your own heart. The Lord has taught me to come to him with open arms. The Lord has been my salvation of this pain during these times. At times, I feel like I am the only one dealing with this pain but I know I am not the only one who is dealing with this pain of love one who has passed away.

One of the songs that has helped me is Katy Perry song “ I'm wide awake.” Katy sings about the man she had fell in love and how she is picking up the pieces from her life. I feel the same way right now in my life. I am trying to pick up the pieces to be stronger inside. I will admit, I have been weak. Tonight, I cried in front of my nieces of how I feel. My little niece Raya kissed me and Lily hugged me. Lily tells me how my dad would make coffee himself and cook eggs for her every morning. Children think of the simple things in their lives. Adults we think of the pain and how life is complex. We must think like little children in our lives and come to him with open arms including with our hurts.

Isleen

Katy Perry's Lyrics to , “ I'm Wide Awake”
I'm wide awake
I'm wide awake
I'm wide awake
Yeah, I was in the dark
I was falling hard
With an open heart
I'm wide awake
How did I read the stars so wrong
I'm wide awake
And now it's clear to me
That everything you see
Ain't always what it seems
I'm wide awake
Yeah, I was dreaming for so long[Pre-Chorus]
I wish I knew then
What I know now
Wouldn't dive in
Wouldn't bow down
Gravity hurts
You made it so sweet
Till I woke up on
On the concrete[Chorus]
Falling from cloud 9
Crashing from the high
I'm letting go tonight
(Yeah I'm) Falling from cloud 9
I'm wide awake
Not losing any sleep
I picked up every piece
And landed on my feet
I'm wide awake
Need nothing to complete myself - nooohooo
I'm wide awake
Yeah, I am born again
[From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/k/katy-perry-lyrics/wide-awake-lyrics.html ]

Outta the lion's den
I don't have to pretend
And it's too late
The story's over now, the end[Pre-Chorus]
I wish I knew then
What I know now
Wouldn't dive in
Wouldn't bow down
Gravity hurts
You made it so sweet
Till I woke up on
On the concrete[Chorus]
Falling from cloud 9
Crashing from the high
I'm letting go tonight (yeah, I'm letting go)
I'm Falling from cloud 9
Thunder rumbling
Castles crumbling
I am trying to hold on
God knows that I tried
Seeing the bright side
But I'm not blind anymore...
I'm wide awake
I'm wide awake[Chorus]
Yeah, I'm Falling from cloud 9
Crashing from the high
You know I'm letting go tonight
I'm Falling from cloud 9
I'm wide awake
I'm wide awake
I'm wide awake
I'm wide awake
I'm wide awake


Wednesday, July 4, 2012

America is Beautiful!


Many Blessings on this wonderful Holiday of Rest!

President John F. Kennedy


Philadelphia
, July 4, 1962

     “It is a high honor for any citizen of our great Republic to speak at this Hall of Independence on this day of Independence. To speak as President of the United States to the Chief Executives of our 50 States is both an opportunity and an obligation. The necessity for comity between the National Government and the several States is an indelible lesson of our long history.

     Because our system is designed to encourage both differences and dissent, because its checks and balances are designed to preserve the rights of the individual and the locality against preeminent central authority, you and I, Governors, recognize how dependent we both are, one upon the other, for the successful operation of our unique and happy form of government. Our system and our freedom permit the legislative to be pitted against the executive, the State against the Federal Government, the city against the countryside, party against party, interest against interest, all in competition or in contention one with another. Our task--your task in the State House and my task in the White House--is to weave from all these tangled threads a fabric of law and progress. We are not permitted the luxury of irresolution. Others may confine themselves to debate, discussion, and that ultimate luxury--free advice. Our responsibility is one of decision--for to govern is to choose.

     Thus, in a very real sense, you and I are the executors of the testament handed down by those who gathered in this historic hall 186 years ago today. For they gathered to affix their names to a document which was, above all else, a document not of rhetoric but of bold decision. It was, it is true, a document of protest--but protests had been made before. It set forth their grievances with eloquence--but such eloquence had been heard before. But what distinguished this paper from all the others was the final irrevocable decision that it took--to assert the independence of free States in place of colonies, and to commit to that goal their lives, their fortunes, and their sacred honor.
     Today, 186 years later, that Declaration whose yellowing parchment and fading, almost illegible lines I saw in the past week in the National Archives in Washington is still a revolutionary document. To read it today is to hear a trumpet call. For that Declaration unleashed not merely a revolution against the British, but a revolution in human affairs. Its authors were highly conscious of its worldwide implications. And George Washington declared that liberty and self-government everywhere were, in his words, "finally staked on the experiment entrusted to the hands of the American people."

     This prophecy has been borne out. For 186 years this doctrine of national independence has shaken the globe--and it remains the most powerful force anywhere in the world today. There are those struggling to eke out a bare existence in a barren land who have never heard of free enterprise, but who cherish the idea of independence. There are those who are grappling with overpowering problems of illiteracy and ill-health and who are ill-equipped to hold free elections. But they are determined to hold fast to their national independence. Even those unwilling or unable to take part in any struggle between East and West are strongly on the side of their own national independence.
     If there is a single issue that divides the world today, it is independence--the independence of Berlin or Laos or Viet-Nam; the longing for independence behind the Iron Curtain; the peaceful transition to independence in those newly emerging areas whose troubles some hope to exploit.

     The theory of independence is as old as man himself, and it was not invented in this hall. But it was in this hall that the theory became a practice; that the word went out to all, in Thomas Jefferson's phrase, that "the God who gave us life, gave us liberty at the same time." And today this Nation--conceived in revolution, nurtured in liberty, maturing in independence--has no intention of abdicating its leadership in that worldwide movement for independence to any nation or society committed to systematic human oppression.

     As apt and applicable as the Declaration of Independence is today, we would do well to honor that other historic document drafted in this hall--the Constitution of the United States. For it stressed not independence but interdependence--not the individual liberty of one but the indivisible liberty of all.

     In most of the old colonial world, the struggle for independence is coming to an end. Even in areas behind the Curtain, that which Jefferson called "the disease of liberty" still appears to be infectious. With the passing of ancient empires, today less than 2 percent of the world's population lives in territories officially termed "dependent." As this effort for independence, inspired by the American Declaration of Independence, now approaches a successful close, a great new effort--for interdependence--is transforming the world about us. And the spirit of that new effort is the same spirit which gave birth to the American Constitution.

     That spirit is today most clearly seen across the Atlantic Ocean. The nations of Western Europe, long divided by feuds far more bitter than any which existed among the 13 colonies, are today joining together, seeking, as our forefathers sought, to find freedom in diversity and in unity, strength.

     The United States looks on this vast new enterprise with hope and admiration. We do not regard a strong and united Europe as a rival but as a partner. To aid its progress has been the basic object of our foreign policy for 17 years. We believe that a united Europe will be capable of playing a greater role in the common defense, of responding more generously to the needs of poorer nations, of joining with the United States and others in lowering trade barriers, resolving problems of commerce, commodities, and currency, and developing coordinated policies in all economic, political, and diplomatic areas. We see in such a Europe a partner with whom we can deal on a basis of full equality in all the great and burdensome tasks of building and defending a community of free nations.
     It would be premature at this time to do more than indicate the high regard with which we view the formation of this partnership. The first order of business is for our European friends to go forward in forming the more perfect union which will someday make this partnership possible.

     A great new edifice is not built overnight. It was 11 years from the Declaration of Independence to the writing of the Constitution. The construction of workable federal institutions required still another generation. The greatest works of our Nation's founders lay not in documents and in declarations, but in creative, determined action. The building of the new house of Europe has followed the same practical, purposeful course. Building the Atlantic partnership now will not be easily or cheaply finished.

     But I will say here and now, on this Day of Independence, that the United States will be ready for a Declaration of Interdependence, that we will be prepared to discuss with a united Europe the ways and means of forming a concrete Atlantic partnership, a mutually beneficial partnership between the new union now emerging in Europe and the old American Union founded here 175 years ago.

     All this will not be completed in a year, but let the world know it is our goal.
     In urging the adoption of the United States Constitution, Alexander Hamilton told his fellow New Yorkers "to think continentally." Today Americans must learn to think intercontinentally.

     Acting on our own, by ourselves, we cannot establish justice throughout the world; we cannot insure its domestic tranquility, or provide for its common defense, or promote its general welfare, or secure the blessings of liberty to ourselves and our posterity. But joined with other free nations, we can do all this and more. We can assist the developing nations to throw off the yoke of poverty. We can balance our worldwide trade and payments at the highest possible level of growth. We can mount a deterrent powerful enough to deter any aggression. And ultimately we can help to achieve a world of law and free choice, banishing the world of war and coercion.

     For the Atlantic partnership of which I speak would not look inward only, preoccupied with its own welfare and advancement. It must look outward to cooperate with all nations in meeting their common concern. It would serve as a nucleus for the eventual union of all free men--those who are now free and those who are vowing that some day they will be free.

     On Washington's birthday in 1861, standing right there, President-elect Abraham Lincoln spoke in this hall on his way to the Nation's Capital. And he paid a brief but eloquent tribute to the men who wrote, who fought for, and who died for the Declaration of Independence. Its essence, he said, was its promise not only of liberty "to the people of this country, but hope to the world . . . [hope] that in due time the weights should be lifted from the shoulders of all men, and that all should have an equal chance."

     On this fourth day of July, 1962, we who are gathered at this same hall, entrusted with the fate and future of our States and Nation, declare now our vow to do our part to lift the weights from the shoulders of all, to join other men and nations in preserving both peace and freedom, and to regard any threat to the peace or freedom of one as a threat to the peace and freedom of all. "And for the support of this Declaration, with a firm reliance on the protection of Divine Providence, we mutually pledge to each other our Lives, our Fortunes and our sacred Honor."

NOTE: The President spoke at 11:40 a.m. in Independence Square in Philadelphia.
JFK's Speech link

Wednesday, June 6, 2012

Daughter's First Love is Her Dad



The quiet moments outside of the front door in cool evening, as I miss my father. I wished my dad sat next to me. I close my eyes to remember those special memories with my dad. I wished, I held my dads hand or tell my dad how big his muscle but it is only a thought. I just heard a child say out loud from a distance " daddy." I was once that child who cried for her daddy when she was lost. Now, as adult I cry for my father in heaven to hug me. I still hurt for my dad. The lost of my father still haunts me even til this day. The emptiness is still there. The tears come & go like rain. I have to manage my quiet times with the thoughts of the father above, Jesus. It is never easy to feel the lost of a father. This year, is my first fatherless day on Father's day. I will be strong this coming father's day with my mom.


"Peace I leave with you; My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Do not let your heart be troubled, nor let it be fearful" (John 14:27 NAS)






Monday, May 28, 2012

America, the land of the free!




America, how beautiful you are to all of us. America, we are proud to live in this great nation. Free to praise the Lord.  Free to vote,  Free to write, Free to read the Bible in public, Free to speak our minds on the web or in public, Free to sing. Free to dance. Free to write on this blog. Free to watch You-Tube videos. There are a lot of nations where we can’t do all these things that I have listed.

Each Memorial  Day and 4th of July, I reflect how great to live in America. Also, reflect those who are in service or fought for our nation. I would like to say “Thank you to my family members, friends or co-workers, friends of family, friends of friends, my neighbors…. I can go on and on. We thank you for serving all those long hours in the field, in the office, in an airplane, in Washington D.C, on a Med team, station in another country ( away from your family) to protect us and our nation. I thank those who have passed away while they fought for our nation. Freedom we live in land of the free because of you.

Picture Taken by Isleen (July,2011)

Monday, May 7, 2012

My Precious Mother




Mother of grace, beauty, strength, loves to serve others, peace of joy, rock of the family, mother of wisdom, loves her shoes, loves to travel, love the color of red, loves flowers and woman of the Lord.

For the last 31 years of my life, I watched my mother go through many seasons of her life. 

My parents was a team for my family for many years. I did not know how my mother was going to manage as one team member many months ago with my father's death.

In the last few months, my mom taught me to be strong when storms come in your life. She would cry to the Lord for her strength when she had rainy days. She would look to her family for guidance and the Lord. Beautiful is my mother who like a rose. A rose who continues to grows in her life with her grandchildren and her older children by her side.

Yesterday, after we came back from the movie theater, she told me that we are strong as family. My mother told me, “ She may be single but we are here as a family for each other.” I would say, “ Team Family”. My mother will always have us children to surround her with lots of love. My mom is just a phone call away like my dad would be there for us children.

Isleen 


Friday, April 27, 2012

One Nation under God

Dr. Tony Evans did a Teaching call " God's Message to America- Part 1". I heard this teaching and it changed my thinking of how I think about my life, my career, my family's life, and about America of today. Check it out!

I did a little research of the speech of Abraham Lincoln on March 30, 1863 called, " Proclamation Appointing a National Fast Day." 


Proclamation Appointing a National Fast Day
Washington, D.C.
March 30, 1863
The Resolution asked President Lincoln to proclaim a national day of prayer and fasting. The Resolution was adopted on March 3, and signed by Lincoln on March 30, one month before the fast day was observed.
By the President of the United States of America.
A Proclamation.
Whereas, the Senate of the United States, devoutly recognizing the Supreme Authority and just Government of Almighty God, in all the affairs of men and of nations, has, by a resolution, requested the President to designate and set apart a day for National prayer and humiliation.
And whereas it is the duty of nations as well as of men, to own their dependence upon the overruling power of God, to confess their sins and transgressions, in humble sorrow, yet with assured hope that genuine repentance will lead to mercy and pardon; and to recognize the sublime truth, announced in the Holy Scriptures and proven by all history, that those nations only are blessed whose God is the Lord.
And, insomuch as we know that, by His divine law, nations like individuals are subjected to punishments and chastisements in this world, may we not justly fear that the awful calamity of civil war, which now desolates the land, may be but a punishment, inflicted upon us, for our presumptuous sins, to the needful end of our national reformation as a whole People? We have been the recipients of the choicest bounties of Heaven. We have been preserved, these many years, in peace and prosperity. We have grown in numbers, wealth and power, as no other nation has ever grown. But we have forgotten God. We have forgotten the gracious hand which preserved us in peace, and multiplied and enriched and strengthened us; and we have vainly imagined, in the deceitfulness of our hearts, that all these blessings were produced by some superior wisdom and virtue of our own. Intoxicated with unbroken success, we have become too self-sufficient to feel the necessity of redeeming and preserving grace, too proud to pray to the God that made us!
It behooves us then, to humble ourselves before the offended Power, to confess our national sins, and to pray for clemency and forgiveness.
Now, therefore, in compliance with the request, and fully concurring in the views of the Senate, I do, by this my proclamation, designate and set apart Thursday, the 30th. day of April, 1863, as a day of national humiliation, fasting and prayer. And I do hereby request all the People to abstain, on that day, from their ordinary secular pursuits, and to unite, at their several places of public worship and their respective homes, in keeping the day holy to the Lord, and devoted to the humble discharge of the religious duties proper to that solemn occasion.
All this being done, in sincerity and truth, let us then rest humbly in the hope authorized by the Divine teachings, that the united cry of the Nation will be heard on high, and answered with blessings, no less than the pardon of our national sins, and the restoration of our now divided and suffering Country, to its former happy condition of unity and peace.
In witness whereof, I have hereunto set my hand and caused the seal of the United States to be affixed.
Done at the City of Washington, this thirtieth day of March, in the year of our Lord one thousand eight hundred and sixty-three, and of the Independence of the United States the eighty seventh.
By the President: Abraham Lincoln
William H. Seward, Secretary of State






Friday, March 30, 2012

My Beautiful Bride





“You are so beautiful to me. I wish for one moment that you could see what I see what I see when I look at you. When I gaze at you, I see a treasure ready to be discovered, a princess ready to shine, and a bride ready to be loved. When I look at you.. I love what I see!” Sheri Rose Shepherd

My latest project has been working on side with my friend Rashad, who takes amazing wedding photos. Check out some of Rashad's work here. I love this latest project to help give great ideas to design for wedding photos for the bride to be. As, I am doing this project, I see part of me as a bride one day.




The other day, I was organized in storage closet and found my mother's wedding box of memories. In her wedding box which I found my mom's wedding dress, wedding cake knives, wedding bead rope, wedding book (empty), my mom's veil, wedding heart shaped pillow and her wedding album. I was in awww mode to find these special treasure items because I felt like I was going back in time. As, I picked up my mom's wedding dress from the 70's, I felt like one day, I will use part of her wedding dress in some kind of design in my wedding dress or hair accessory. This was a special day for my parents because they waited 5 years to get married in 1972 and then they spend 36 years together married. My parents kept their promised to each other to be married until death do them apart. As, I look at the wedding pictures and see more than the vintage wear from 70's but a promised to each other for life. Life didn't happened for my parents until their wedding day. My mom said to me that other day, “Being a married couple build a good life for us with a home, our children, careers, and being together.” Mom cried because she missed her husband. My mom met my dad at the age of 16 years old. One day, my mother will meet her prince in heaven (Jesus) and her husband, one day. Marriage is more than wedding reception and everything else about the wedding. The important part of the wedding is the ceremony between the two couple. Life happens between the two couple. Marriage is about two coming together become one for life.





“For your Royal Husband Delights in your beauty: honor him, for his is your Lord”,Psalm 45:11

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