I'm Wide Awake- Isleen

Hello, World!

It has been awhile since I have written anything on this blog. I have reflected many things in my life this past summer. I have my dark days and my sunny days in my life. Sometimes the dark days are longer than it should be in my life. It will be a year from now since I lost my best friend, my dad to colon cancer. Yes, I have tried to move on this year but it has not been easy to be healed from the pain this year. I have tried to put aside the pain and keep busy but the pain follows me. I cried my tears away in depression sometimes. Yes, I am mess, people. I am human. I am Christian who has this huge pain in my life. A death has occurred with your love one. The death can also have effect inside of your own heart. The Lord has taught me to come to him with open arms. The Lord has been my salvation of this pain during these times. At times, I feel like I am the only one dealing with this pain but I know I am not the only one who is dealing with this pain of love one who has passed away.

One of the songs that has helped me is Katy Perry song “ I'm wide awake.” Katy sings about the man she had fell in love and how she is picking up the pieces from her life. I feel the same way right now in my life. I am trying to pick up the pieces to be stronger inside. I will admit, I have been weak. Tonight, I cried in front of my nieces of how I feel. My little niece Raya kissed me and Lily hugged me. Lily tells me how my dad would make coffee himself and cook eggs for her every morning. Children think of the simple things in their lives. Adults we think of the pain and how life is complex. We must think like little children in our lives and come to him with open arms including with our hurts.

Isleen

Katy Perry's Lyrics to , “ I'm Wide Awake”

I'm wide awake

I'm wide awake

I'm wide awake

Yeah, I was in the dark

I was falling hard

With an open heart

I'm wide awake

How did I read the stars so wrong

I'm wide awake

And now it's clear to me

That everything you see

Ain't always what it seems

I'm wide awake

Yeah, I was dreaming for so long[Pre-Chorus]

I wish I knew then

What I know now

Wouldn't dive in

Wouldn't bow down

Gravity hurts

You made it so sweet

Till I woke up on

On the concrete[Chorus]

Falling from cloud 9

Crashing from the high

I'm letting go tonight

(Yeah I'm) Falling from cloud 9

I'm wide awake

Not losing any sleep

I picked up every piece

And landed on my feet

I'm wide awake

Need nothing to complete myself - nooohooo

I'm wide awake

Yeah, I am born again

[From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/k/katy-perry-lyrics/wide-awake-lyrics.html ]

Outta the lion's den

I don't have to pretend

And it's too late

The story's over now, the end[Pre-Chorus]

I wish I knew then

What I know now

Wouldn't dive in

Wouldn't bow down

Gravity hurts

You made it so sweet

Till I woke up on

On the concrete[Chorus]

Falling from cloud 9

Crashing from the high

I'm letting go tonight (yeah, I'm letting go)

I'm Falling from cloud 9

Thunder rumbling

Castles crumbling

I am trying to hold on

God knows that I tried

Seeing the bright side

But I'm not blind anymore...

I'm wide awake

I'm wide awake[Chorus]

Yeah, I'm Falling from cloud 9

Crashing from the high

You know I'm letting go tonight

I'm Falling from cloud 9

I'm wide awake

I'm wide awake

I'm wide awake

I'm wide awake

I'm wide awake