Hope Floats

PS. 119:49

“Rememeber the word unto thy servant, upon which thou has caused me to Hope”. Hope is the word for today. Most of us hope for G-d's will, a better life, better career, hope to be skinny, hope to be sucessful, hope to have a good marriage, hope to have good kids,  & hope the dog is good to us. The dog part is a little too much but you get the point.

Really does hope mean to us ? Most of us are Christians but do we hope on the Lord or ourselves? Are we having faith in what the Bible says to us about our life? Are we trusting in the Lord? I found myself in hope of my life. I did not want to wake up one day. I wanted to stay in my bed all day to allow the pain to go away in my life. I cried. I cried to the Lord to help me out of the pit I was in my life. I wanted to give up on life. Yes. When you are in the deepest depression the thoughts of sucide can come across in your mind. This is where as a Chirstian you have to fight yourself in prayer to have hope in your life. I asked the Lord to help me to have hope again in my life. There are times when I wake up each morning to find hope in the word and in the Lord. I tell myself there is hope for everyone but it is my job to help other's to find their hope in the Lord and also in the word.

Isleen    

A Special Royal Wedding

This Royalty wedding is a big deal is in the media today but it is a dream. The dress, dinner, invitation, dance, decorations, the crown & jewelry. For many it is a dream for many of women across the world including me to marry my prince......

The reality... of this wedding. As we watch Princess Diane's son walk into his mother's foot steps of getting married on 04.29.11. Many of us will record it or watch it live @ 4am but all of us want to find out about this wedding.

Diane had remarkable life because she was a mother to two beautiful children but also a princess. She went through a messy divorce but Diane gave to help others. I grew up looking at her photos in People Magazine, her fashions, and her hair styles. She helped & traveled to many countries to recognize the important issues in the world during the time she had lived. One of my friends Roz even meet with her one time when she was younger. Check out her Blog, Call “Princess Di”

and also you can read another blog call "Watching the Royal Wedding” . Diane died in tragic accident. The world cried and many of us wonder of what was going to happen to her two sons including myself.

Friday Morning, I will be one of those crazy people watching her son William walk down the aisle with his bride to be. Why? Diane story continues with her son. History is being made and I want to be part of it. I want to tell my children that this prince found his princess to be. My desire is to be that girl to have her prince to ask her to marry her. I also want to make a difference with my life to reach out to others who can not help themselves. I want my husband & I to go into nations to seek those who are hungering, needing the gospel, to be healed, to be taught, and fed. I want my prince & I to do this to help many people in this world similar to Diane and now like her son William. I know it is a dream but I really feel it will happen one day. I believe in all powerful G-d in heaven.

Isleen

Meaning

What is the meaning of life is often asked to lending ears

Quickly the answer comes with little satisfaction of the assuring words

The old and the young sound the same when speaking of this

Each has determine what has been presented is worthwhile satisfaction

This is what it is all about someone may say of a sandwich or a trophy

But echoing words are meaningless to us who see only what is proclaimed

Life goes ever so slow and yet the morning runs into the night

Meanings has brought much turmoil and unexplainable events

Groupings of meanings seem to explain but the search continues

Listen to the story of singing swallows that don’t complain but give thanks

In their musical tones flowing through the air to reach those who listen

Yes, there is a meaning in the air if you hear what is spoken to you

The created flying beings seem not see the traffic lights in red or yellow

Who sings to them when they are down or do they listen to themselves

Tears come down my cheeks when I think of all the small who hurt and cry

We may seek meaning when the meaning is already there in us

Answers to deep thoughts are slow to find and hard to hear easily

A morning can bring some meaning yet direction lacks our focus

Another morning brings another meaning and still no light shines the path

Time gone by is examined by someone seeing many mornings to find that

Each one is as fresh as the next bringing newness and joy

Sing to me young bird that I may see another morning and look for more

To come because I begin to see that meaning is not in-between but in the continuance

Of the little ones walking and the old moving to where they find significance

Meaning can not be seen but yet all speak of it or are determine to find it

Meaning can not to be found but it is a mere journey to your final destiny.

Take care of yourself and those around you in your journey afar

Because a measurement speaks of you in what you did in search of meaning.

By Dan Rodriguez





***This was written by my father Dan Rodriguez. This is just a piece of work but he hopes to write a book one day.
Isleen

Ready to Fly into Mission Field

Mission Field

I love it when I look up plane tickets online to see what type of flights I can get even if I have to wake up 6am to fly out for a cheap discount. Well, going to the mission field is sort of like that when you have caught the vision to some unknown land that speaks a different language or trying to learn something about the culture. I remembered one time while I was in Israel and had shopped in one of the stores. A woman comes up to me and comes into my space. This is considered culture manners in this country. Have you been in culture shock? I have in a few situations and trying to eat the foods.

It has been a while since I have been on the mission field and I am dying to go somewhere but my schedule has stopped me from going. I take little trips here and there to visit family or sight see but it is nothing like being on the mission field. Serving is the key to be on the mission field and it is not always about yourself. One spring break, I decide to go to México to serve with a couple who live near the border towns. Bob and Donna where the names but it seemed the couple never rested because there were always ministries or helping the community people. Bob and Donna never complained when I had visited them but they seemed that they were content. Will you be content if you were on the mission field? One day I will be called to the mission field for now my mission is here in Dallas- Worth Area. I am ready to serve.

Be Blessed.
Iamisleen

DJ AM

DJ AM

I was reading some of DJ AM Blog recently and the thoughts to myself of how lonely this DJ AM life lived. His career was being a DJ in the hottest clubs each night. DJ AM traveling to city-to-city each night. A recently broke-up and the past accident from plane crash haunted this dear life fellow to end his life with drugs. DJ AM & Michael Jackson are celebrity we read about in the magazines and in the newspapers about their daily life but not realize that some of these people are the loneliness people in the world. Can you imagine yourself as celebrity? Can you imagine your life being in the daily newspaper each day? Money & fame may attract others to this live style but not realize that it comes with a price that they have to pay. One DJ AM’s quotes, “"Feed the Soul, starve the ego" DJ AM When I read this quote makes me want to be humble with everything I do in my life. I was born into this world to make a difference and not live my life to be selfish with it. There are others who are around me are in the worst situations than I am but I am suppose to be there for as Christ would be there. What would Jesus do comes to my mind?

Iamisleen

In Times of Change

Life has changed for me and focusing life different being at the age 30. My world has changed in the last months. I am started to question a lot of things in my life. First of all, Social Network which I have gotten rid of one website. I seemed to be queen of Social Network but I had to let go some things that I have been holding on for many years. It is time to reflect what is important to me which is my family, career, school and my life.I will write on this blog spot.com when I have moment free.

Many of us are starting to think of our future especially myself. When I look at Japan and what has occurred my heart breaks for these people and their homes. My prayers and my hugs go out to all the families in Japan. May the Lord love on you those of you who lost love ones, homes, your career, or everything. May the Lord Guide you and love on you.

Prince William gave amazing speech recently to New Zealand citizens on 03.17.2011 which is fitting for the times we are currently living in.

Read the following:

“Tena koutou katoa.

Today I represent the Queen. I convey to you Her Majesty's message of deep sympathy and condolence.
My grandmother once said that grief is the price we pay for love. Here today, we love and we grieve.
We honour the lives and memories of all those who did not survive the earthquake. New Zealanders and those from many countries around the world who came to this city as visitors or to make it their home, our thoughts and our prayers are with their families, wherever they may be.
I also bring a personal message. It arises from seeing this tragedy unfold from afar. It is a message about strength, through kindness, about fortitude.
For you who are so close to these events and have lost so much, it must be hard to grasp the degree of admiration, indeed awe, with which you are regarded by the rest of the world.
Courage and understated determination have always been the hallmark of New Zealanders. Of Cantabrians.
These things the world has long known. But to see them so starkly demonstrated over these terrible, painful months has been humbling.
Put simply, you are an inspiration to all people.
I count myself enormously privileged to be here to tell you that.
This community, more than any other in the world, can appreciate the full horror of what is unfolding in Japan. Our thoughts and prayers are with them.
In the last two days I have heard tales of great tragedy, but also of extraordinary bravery and selfless courage. Throughout, one phrase units them all.
With the Queen's heartfelt good wishes and those of the Prince of Wales and other members of my family, I say it to you now.
Kia kaha, be strong.”

http://www.nzherald.co.nz/nz/news/article.cfm?c_id=1&objectid=10713386

Isleen 

What is Next?

Did you ever have a moment in your life when you wished that you could control the situation? Do you wish that you could turn back the time? Right now, I am dealing what is next period of my life? Do I pack? Or should wait and have faith of where my next step?

In last 2 months of my life has not been the easiest one? Being unemployed is not easy at all. I have found myself searching through job after job, trying to make appointments for interview, working on Graduate homework, going to job fairs, sending emails to potential job offers, working on unemployment homework, going to workshops, and working on call when they need me at the hotel. There is the emotional factor that plays in when you don't have a job. When to sleep in my bed? I can't sleep at night because the worry starts to take place. Questions, questions start to take over of what is going to happen tomorrow and the depression takes over. There have been a nights where I could not sleep in my own bed and slept on my couch, my parent's couch, and my boyfriend's parents couch. “Where would I am going to sleep? “Is the question that pops in my head. I have been individual that plans aheads of what is going to happen next but this time I can't plan ahead because I do not know what is going happen next in my life.

The answer is G-d. One night, I found myself extremely depressed and woke up in the middle of my sleep praying. I heard the Lord saying to me, “ I will never leave you or forsake you.” A peace came into my heart as I heard those words. A friend called me up out of nowhere just to pray with me on the phone. I know the Lord is in control of my life. I have to have faith in believing in him for my future. G-d has always been there for me even when I traveled to the Middle East in times of uncertainly in this country. Hardest part of going to the next level of your life is letting go. Letting go everything you have or worked so hard for many years. I asked the Lord many times of why this happened to me? Why at this time? My mom tells me that Lord is teaching me something early in my life right now than when I am 50 years old. She tells me that you don't have the fancy house, car, boat, and the things you do not need. I am learning to think about my retirement, my future home, my future family living in my means instead out of my means. All these material things is temporal and something new will come along and we will toss the old.

The real focusing is on money. Money? Money makes the world go round but does it really? Money is the root of all evil as the Bible says. One of my friends called me up and said to me that we live in society that surrounds around money even in the church. He told me do you really need to live on money? What does the Bible say about money? As he was talking... I remembered many of the familes living in the Religious Jewish communities in Israel. The fathers and sons praying and study scriptures all day. The Jewish women who stayed home to raise their families. These people live on a limited income and give, give their tithe to the church. What would happen to our society if we lived limited income? There is so much competition in our society of who has the better car or better house. What about the relationships that help each other in times of trials. I had a Dell home computer that could of sold online for money but I did not. I gave this computer to one of friends who was in need for school. Not one penny.... I only I received but a hug. Giving is important in my life of those who is in need even when one does not have a job. What if we live in a socialist society? Would we as society live poor? It is scary to think about socialist society and part of me thinks that we may go in this direction in the near future. Today, I think of what is going to happen next in my life but I don't worry but trust in him. In G-d, I trust with my life. If you don't know where to turn in life turn to your Bible & prayer of course the Lord. Answers will be given to you but only in time. In the next few weeks, which I will find the outcome of where my life will be in the 6 to 9months. I ask all the prayer warriors please continue to pray for me.

Update..... 6mth, later... A prayed was answered. See my latest blog> June, 2011.

I love you all.

Be Blessed.

Isleen